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i am currently ingesting diet coke and raspberries, when darkness falls, i eat like a famished hog. not appealing. it's ok anais, your only diving four hours to indiana to visit a jolly Christmas filled theme park. holiday world, here i come! don't worry, i'm sure those four hours sitting on your ass, will help you not look like a fat ass when you strap on the bikini and bear all for the the children filled with holiday cheer in august. you can blend right in with santa as you throw in a beard.

the truth is, i'm not fat. but i'm not thin. because nobody reads this blog, i am unashamed to admit that i had an eating disorder that i still struggle with, and only really got under control two weeks ago. i was bulimic. aren't bulimic people supposed to be thin? like being anorexic, but easier? yeah, i thought so too, obviously not.


i was about to start this parograph with "subject change" but that would be rather redundant, if i did have readers, they would be alerted of the obvious subject change, by the new subject.

i learned something that perhaps made a grow a bit as a person tonight from my best friend. he has it tougher than i do, and is a better person than i could hope to be, and i am alright with that, because personally, i prefer being a little evil. basically, don't fall for attention.

i also came to realize something on my own, but it is tragically too late, and it's to not be so uptight all the time, and let him lick your face. stop being stuck up. i think it's time i turned to youtube with my rambling.
save that for another day, when i have makeup on.