still standing

im still standing

I really expected it to hurt a lot more.

I expected to be shattered on the floor
and left to pick up the pieces myself
and slowly reassemble all the little fragments that were me.




It's not like that.
I feel stronger
braver


mature.

I can now see that I am more emotionally resilient than I ever gave myself credit for

I can be independent and just fine


still strong




still in one piece



still standing

blowing away the puzzle

i can almost feel the pieces of the puzzle of my life blowing away,
everything is about to blow up in my face.


nothing has happened yet, but i can feel a big change,
something that will upset everything.




right when all the pieces are about to fit together,
only 2 pieces left now
both of them about to be put in their place.
but i guarantee it won't be as easy as it seems to place a piece of my puzzle away,
no, that piece is about to blow away,
and the rest of the puzzle will fall to pieces at my feet
so that i can pick it up and start over.



who knows, maybe things will be better at the end?